Tuesday 2 June 2009

follow up check

i change yu ze's 2 medical appointment to today so that we don't have make 2 trips down to kk. we were there for his scan report and 3rd dose of penomoccocal.

he cleared his scan report and was discharge by kk for his uti. no more follow up needed, his last episode of uti was an isolated case. in the afternoon, we had appointment with his pd for the 3rd dose of penomoccocal. as usual, his weight and height is on the low side. he is only at 3 percentile by age. pd asked what he takes daily. she told us yu ze's absorption might not be good cos he eats a lot but not putting on weight. she wants us to stop giving him 'adult' (chee chong fun, rice, etc) food. give yu ze more soft food or cereal.

however, yu ze don't like cereal at all. he likes textured food. too soft food, he is not interested at all. he is already eating rice and porridge liao, how to go back to cereal for him. again because of his weight issue, i had another cold war with darling.

he say that i shouldn't introduce 'adult' food to yu ze so soon. should just give him cereal and nothing else. he didn't put on weight cos he can't absorb all his food. i feel so 'wei qu'. why blame me when yu ze is small size. since birth, his growth has always been consistent at this kind of rate. he is healthy and active so what is the problem when he is only at 3 percentile. if he had been at the 75 percentile range and drop to 3 percentile, then i will worry. but he is always at the low end what. so what is the concern. what's there to worry about? i really don't understand leh.

both of us are underweight too, so to have a small size baby, isn't it normal? darling make me feel like i don't love yu ze at all. i don't care for him. my love for yu ze is 0% and his is 100%. i'm really very hurt. why can't he accept the fact that his son is on the small size. its coming to 10 months liao, he still can't accept it. he didn't realise that he is actually putting a lot of stress on me.

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