history repeat (partially)

i didn't get to start the day in a good way. first thing i did is vomitted yesterday lunch even before i manage to brush my teeth. since then i hardly take anything, i just try to drink some hot milo. totally, no appetite at all.

darling needs to go out, leaving me and yu ze home alone. as i'm feeling so tired where got energy to entertain my active yu ze. so i told him, mummy is very tired; yu ze is a good boy; you play yourself and mummy rest, ok? not sure if he really understand what i mean though. i on tv for him, let his thomas the train runs on the track while i rest in bed. he really didn't disturb me while i rest. he will run to see me occasionally. though i can't see him in person but i do hear that he is playing on his own. when there is total silence then i will get up to see him. each time, i did that he was standing near the sofa watching tv. i was very pleased with him.

darling came back at 11+, told him to bring yu ze to buy lunch while i sleep. they came back with lunch, darling feed and bathe yu ze then put him to sleep while i continue to sleep. only wake up for another cup of milo then sleep again. at around 4pm, when yu ze is up, darling insist that i see a doc.

i change and headed down to kk for check. cos i'm already at 32 weeks+, was send straight up to delivery suite. told darling to bring yu ze go walk walk as i will take some time with the ctg machine. was strapped on ctg for nearly an hour, doc came and told me that i'm having contractions at 3 minutes apart. they want me to admit to monitor further. if really going into labour then need a jab to strengthen baby's lungs cos baby is too small.

once told that i need to admit, sms darling to get babysitter to come fetch yu ze and look after him for the night. she came over quickly and brought yu ze back with her.

the same thing happened when i was expecting yu ze. its also at 32 weeks. yu ze then was lack of movement. contractions now could be cause by my vomiting and 'lao sai' once. was only given medicine to stop contractions. everything is stabilise and send back to normal ward at near 11pm.

3rd day of school

it will be my last day sending yu ze to school by school bus. he is going to go home himself today. i drop him off in class and leave immediately without any delay. as expected, he cry te moment he was pass over to the teacher.

i walk out after saying bye bye and headed down to serangoon office. plan to go back to see him after we finish our submission, then have my lunch and go for a hair cut. things doesn't go as my plan. only manage to do my submission by lunch time. thus, i headed straight down to town to have my lunch. went over to kimage but cecilia is on leave. didn't get to cut my hair but make appointment for next tues.

went home to rest and wait for yu ze to come back from school. i went downstairs to wait for him at 530pm. bus came at 540pm which is very accurate, time given to me by bus driver. i'm so glad to see a happy yu ze. the bus auntie say he never cry at all and can recognise the way home when he is reaching.

3 days had passed by just like that. the actual challenge will come on mon when yu ze is going to school alone. no more mummy following him. really wonder how it will be.

2nd day of school

after yesterday's experience, i decide to drop yu ze and go off for my breakfast. he is going to stay whole day instead of half. same thing, i took school bus with him this morning. he was very happy to see the bus coming and happily walking towards it. i guess he is happy now cos i still go with him. not sure if he will be like that next week when he needs to go on his own.

instead of going straight into class, we went over to playground side to look for simin. she had brought along some carrots for amanda and yu ze to feed the rabbits before going into class. both of them had fun feeding the rabbits. we send them into their class at 8am.

yu ze didn't cry in class cos i went in with him but he refuse to let me go too. when i told him, i go out for a while and will be back, he will hug me very tightly refuse to let go. by 830am, i decided cannot liao. i will never be able to get out if i don't insist and walk out. i kiss him and say bye bye then pass him to the auntie in class and walk out. the moment he is in he auntie's hand, he started crying and screaming.

i walked straight out without turning back. took a bus to amk hub to have breakfast. by the time, i return to school it was 1015am. it was play time for yu ze. i peep at him from the office and glad that he is playing happily. i took my stuff and went over to the office to do my work. around 11am, i wanted to peep at him again but couldn't. happen that his teacher is outside his class so i manage to talk to her. she is surprised that yu ze is doing so much better today, didn't cry much unless there is another child crying. even then, he is only like weeping, not the loud cry. she also let him sit facing the window so that he will get to see me if i ever walk pass.

at 12 noon, i heard him crying loudly as i walk towards his class. quickly hide myself and walk away. went back at 1pm, everyone is taking their nap liao. i walk in and saw my yu ze sleeping soundly without his pacifier. also checked with teacher on why he cried after bath, she say cos he wanted his milk. sigh.... that's my little milk addict. off i go again for my lunch and inform teacher i will be back at 430pm to wait for school bus with him.

he was happily playing in class when i went back but started crying the moment he saw me. i went in to hug him and sit with him. i ask him to join his friend in the singing while i sit at a corner for him. he let go of me and join his friends, will still come back to me to hug me once in a while.

finally the bus came and its time to go. yu ze is more than happy to say bye bye to everyone and follow me to the bus. its another bus auntie and not the same one in the morning. talked to yu ze and told him that he will need to follow bus driver uncle and auntie home tomorrow. i will be waiting for him at home. the journey home for this timing is indeed quite long, took us 40 minutes to reach home.

1st day of school

today will be yu ze's first day in school (childcare to be exact). mummy had arranged to take school bus with him to school so that he can get to know the bus driver uncle and auntie on the bus.

the bus is supposed to pick us up at 720am, 2 car parks from our place. why 2 car parks away cos right in front of my car park is rosyth pri school, there will be bad traffic during that time as many parents will be dropping their kids off. thus, they can only offer to pick us up 2 car park away which is like 5 - 10 minutes walk depending on our speed.

anyway, first day of school after chinese new year both mummy and yu ze almost missed the bus. mummy wakes up at 7.05am and quickly get myself changed and make milk for yu ze. wake him up and quickly changed him into his uniform and carry him and his school bag and head straight down. anyway, we are definitely later than 720am but we are lucky to catch the bus before it turn out of the car park. if not, we will have to take a cab down to school ourselves. i let yu ze drink his milk in the bus and tell him that he will need to follow uncle and auntie next week to go to school. i give my contact to the bus driver together with yu ze's name and class and the arrangement for tomorrow and fri.

i would say the journey to school is not too bad cos we are taking a lot of small road through terrace houses and condo to pick up other children. therefore, the bus speed is pretty slow in a way which i think it should be quite safe.

since its first day of school, i decide to let yu ze stay for class only and bring him back at 11am taking the school bus again. i brought him to his class and drop him off to play while i go back to the office to make payment for his school fees. when i went back to peep at him, he is still happily playing inside. i'm so relief and happy to see that. however, i was happy too soon.

after 30 minutes, he suddenly realised that i'm gone and started screaming and crying inside. keep pulling the teacher's hand to the door indicating that he wants to come out. then he saw me from the window, he cry even louder. it so heart pain to see him cry like that, i end up crying with him. i walk into class and carry him trying to pacify him. my tears just keep dropping while i carry him. i never thought he will be so needy as he has always been very brave and independent. he hug me very tightly and refuse to let go at all.

after a while, then i manage to put him down to let him join his class for activities. i sat at a little corner in the class. he will play half way and start searching for me and came running to me for a hug. he got himself injured on the first day of school too. he and his friend were playing at the kitchen set, don't know what happen his hand got caught and become red and swollen. he was crying so badly that the teacher quickly get ice pack for him. he just hug me and cry. poor boy.

i stay in class with him for the full 3 hours. yu ze slept on the way home in the bus, i guess he must be too tired from the class and crying. and me, i'm just too hungry cos both of us woke up late, i end up with no breakfast. hopefully, yu ze will do better tomorrow or i can more hard hearted and leave him with the teacher and go for my breakfast.

yu ze - 18 months

time really fly pass. my bao bei yu ze is 18 months old liao and this heartless mummy is going to send him off to childcare after chinese new year. cutting him off from his comfort zone (babysitter) to a total new environment. though not totally new to him cos i have been bringing him down to get familiar with the environment for the past Saturdays. since he had not met any of his teachers yet, so still can consider new to him bah.

i don't know how well he will adapt to childcare life. certainly wish that he can get used to it pretty fast. knowing that i can't send him to childcare when i'm doing confinement, i have also make arrangement for yu ze to start taking school bus. therefore, at 18 months he needs to face 2 challenges at one go. going to childcare and taking school bus, its sound like a life of a primary school kid.

as mention in my previous blog, he was complaint for his poor speech. hopefully, he will pick up in his speech after going to childcare. i had got all his things ready for childcare except for labelling them. not sure how i should label them especially the towels. thinking of getting a label machine but the labels are so ex that i'm still considering. really cheapo mummy hoh. :p

fail OGTT

this afternoon, i received a call from kk informing that i failed my ogtt. the passing grade is 7.8 while i got a 9. well, its better compared to yu ze's time where i got a 9.7. i'm all prepared to fail cos baby does has a sweet tooth thus i do crave for sweet stuff unlike yu ze.

i requested to skip the diet course since i have already attended before. i would just go and meet up with the dietitian. i'm waiting for kk to call me back to confirm my appointment with the dietitian. hopefully, it can be schedule on my next gynae visit which is on 2 march 2010 b then i should be in my 32 weeks liao.

for sure, i can get away with the finger pricking process. for a healthy baby and a healthy me, i must be a good girl and work on it. :)

complain by pd again

yu ze had his final jab yesterday. again, he got complain from pd. this time is not so much on his weight and height but his speech. he is now 9.2kg and 74.5cm.

pd say he should be speaking at least 20-30 single words and 5-10 double words now. however, yu ze hardly had 5 words leh. i think and think can only think of bus, uh oh, take out and mum mum leh. he don't even say papa and mama loh.

it never occur to me that his speech is poor cos he is very talkative in his baby language loh. if we can make up what he is saying from his baby language then he is really saying a lot. :P pd says give him 6 months to improve. if in 6 months time, he is still like that she would suggest to send him for speech therapy liao.

sigh.... is it necessary to send him for speech therapy. i thought its common to have boys to talk later. anyway, hopefully he will improve when he goes to childcare.

7th gynae visit

today, wake up early cos i got ogtt today. fast since last night and did my first blood draw at 9am, drink a cup of super sweet drink then did a 2nd blood draw at 11.15am. the drink is so yucky that even when i burp i still get the taste. yucks!!!!

 

in between the wait for blood draw, i also had appointment to see gynae. baby is at 1.1kg same weight as yu ze at 28 weeks. i gain 1.3kg in 1 month time, weighing 49.1kg now. gynae confirm with me again that baby is still a girl. hahaha.....  gynae mention that if i don't get his call in 1 weeks time, it means good news.

 

i don't remember having to wait so long for the result loh. last time, i got the call that night itself liao. anyway, till now i still haven't get any call. maybe i must really wait till 1 week later bah.  we had also did our pre-admission and book our room. again, we had go for a1 ward cos darling say must be fair. since yu ze got single room, then we will have single room again. however, the fees is definitely more expensive now. we make payment of $2080 via cash compared to about $1.7k, 2 years ago.